The theme of never say never seems to continue in my life as we just bought a house in an area (Gerrard and Carlaw Streets) that I have always said I’m uninterested in. While my feelings haven’t changed, the price on the house and the huge 45 feet by 90 feet seemed too good to pass up. Despite the spaciousness of the house compared to our current two-bedroom house, I’m still conflicted about leaving the Pocket and the life we’ve created for ourselves here. 2008 has been the year of change though with the birth of Isabel and our favourite restaurant, Sakawaya, closing.
My conflicted feelings continue as I try to decide whether or not to buy some books on Chinese food. I’m always looking for Chinese cookbooks with recipes I might be able to duplicate. I realized this week I never feel Chinese enough. My mother is my baronmeter for excellent Chinese cooking. I’ll never be like my mother partly because of a lack of knowledge and partly because my life isn’t just about cooking.
I have few if any Chinese friends and incorporating the Chinese culture into my daily life is a constant challenge. I don’t know how I’ll incorporate being Chinese into Isabel’s life. I’ve already bought a children’s illustrated book, The Pet Dragon, by Christopher Niemann as a way of introducing Isabel to Chinese characters. Educating Isabel about her heritage will probably be a lifelong project for me.